unrecognizable reflections.

betype: Why Should You Care About Typography? | Co.Design

Wed, 19 Jun 2013 04:00:34 -0400

betype:

Why Should You Care About Typography? | Co.Design

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Tue, 18 Jun 2013 20:00:39 -0400

astronomerinprogress: How to Solve a Physics Problem

Tue, 18 Jun 2013 11:04:15 -0400

astronomerinprogress:

How to Solve a Physics Problem

Tonight feels like it’s gonna have a 3 AM reflective writing session. I dunno. I’m just...

Mon, 17 Jun 2013 23:20:00 -0400

Tonight feels like it’s gonna have a 3 AM reflective writing session. I dunno. I’m just getting the feeling.

For now I need to study for calculus. So I’m gonna leave a piece I wrote for my “final selection” portion of my Lang portfolio. (Part 1 was taken from an ask I answered on this blog.)

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Dear “Past Me”,

Hello. You always seem to be with me, accumulating mass as each second of my life goes by. But I don’t speak to you very often; perhaps I feel no need to. I often think about you, if that’s any consolation, but forgive me for not visiting more frequently. The neighborhood you live in is too crowded, you see.

Thank you for being my greatest teacher. The lessons I have learned from you surpass any textbook or responsible adult or loving friend. I have learned the extent of love, the weight of guilt, the ugliness of reality, the beauty of honesty, and the list goes on. Lesson after lesson after lesson. This curriculum is never-ending, yet no one has mastered it as well as I. If you were a discipline, I’d be your scholar.

You are ever-changing, just as I am. There are times when I look back at you, feeling like I hardly even know you, because of the things you’ve done. But other times, you are strangely familiar, fitting me like a perfect embrace. For you are me and I am you; we will always be together. But I am glad to keep a certain distance at all times. Because you are in the past for a reason—so I can move forward.

Love,
Me

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Dear “Present Me”,

You are struggling. I see your thoughts right now and they are jumbled. Summer is approaching and in it brings a new array of fears. These last days are bringing you frustration. Your mind is already at the beach, the pool, the park—frying in the sun. It has never felt so exposed by the searing light; it is afraid. But your body is still here, chained to your chair, fingers fastened to the keyboard keys. You reach for your mind, searching for words that don’t appear. You call, call, call… the line is dead. You’re checked out. You’re done. You have burned yourself out.

You adore the sunshine, basking in its spotlight, never fearing sunburn. But there are days when the sun is too strong, and before you notice, the heat scorches you. You panic; yet again you have stayed outside for far too long. But there can be comfort in some shade. So you seek a tree, acquaint yourself under its protective leaves, and take a deep breath. You let the cooler air hit your beads of sweat, soothing the aches.

You must find balance in your life. Too often do you charge ahead full speed, driven to a goal in mind, but losing yourself along the way. Everything in your life you experience in extremes. Of course, you pride yourself in this. Live life with a daring attitude! See more, hear more, feel more! But you forget that you are human. You have limits. You need the occasional rest stop to cool down for a breath of fresh air.

You and I are a close pair. Thankfully, you usually heed my words. But sometimes you sprint in bursts, leaving even your present self behind, ignoring all my warnings. I hope that now with your newfound sunburns and your skin wrinkled like a prune, you see the value in some darkness.

I love that you run. You never run away; you are always running towards a destination. But I can’t always keep up with you. And if you won’t wait for me, who will you ever wait for?

Love,
Me

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Dear “Future Me”,

You are a stranger to me. Yet I can never reach out my hand to shake yours, because you are only an illusion. A dream that fuels me. When I think about you… I think of happiness. I envision a glowing individual, accomplished in all her pursued fields, with a wealth of supportive loved ones surrounding her. Is happiness not a human’s endless goal?

I know I’ve given you trouble. I’ve held you back from places that you wanted to be. And sometimes I don’t always act in your best interest. I’m sorry for being so selfish.

But I never forget you. You are a model, ever present in the forefront of my mind, a looming pressure that encourages and motivates and stresses me. How do I live up to your lofty expectations? By taking one day at a time. I apologize for keeping you waiting, but I promise I will reach you eventually.

I can see you curled up next to a fireplace in the winter, holding a warm cup of tea. It looks like you finally found your shelter, the appropriate protection you need from the bitter cold raging outside. But I also see your distance from the fire. Currently, I am a fiery individual, driven by flames of passion. You, however, have learned to control that fire. I find that accomplishment remarkable.

It is my sincerest hope that you are what I dream of. The better, refined, older me with a stronger soul and hardier heart. But dreams change and reality shifts in unpredictable ways. I have been told that you resemble me in appearance… but perhaps I wouldn’t even recognize you.

I guess I will never meet you, stranger. You are an illusion that I am content to feed. For you represent a shining future that I will never cease to work for.

Time ticks on.

Love,
Me

"Some people are old at 18 and some are young at 90. Time is a concept that humans created."

Mon, 17 Jun 2013 12:01:08 -0400

“Some people are old at 18 and some are young at 90. Time is a concept that humans created.”

- Yoko Ono, 1977 (via lolitandaddy)

everythingsmallandsweet: Dance / Wow. on We Heart It....

Mon, 17 Jun 2013 08:00:43 -0400

everythingsmallandsweet:

Dance / Wow. on We Heart It. http://weheartit.com/entry/29000329

my-jumbled-thoughts: hannlbalism: cinematicnomad: teeheehaha-a...

Mon, 17 Jun 2013 04:00:27 -0400

my-jumbled-thoughts:

hannlbalism:

cinematicnomad:

teeheehaha-ara:

waitingfornothing-andwastingaway:

jaba-the-slut:

PLOT TWIST.

this is incredible

I THOUGHT IT WAS A CANVAS PAINTING

this was too amazing not to reblog

WELL THAT WAS UNEXPECTED. woah.

Alexa Meade

She’s brilliant.

ckck: In Focus: The Terrible Beauty of California’s Powerhouse...

Sun, 16 Jun 2013 20:00:39 -0400

ckck:

In Focus: The Terrible Beauty of California’s Powerhouse Fire.

Sarah Simmons - Wanted You More - Studio Version - The Voice...

Sun, 16 Jun 2013 17:51:33 -0400

Sarah Simmons - Wanted You More - Studio Version - The Voice 2013 (by idolPlay)

This song hits oddly close to home… The lyrics fit too aptly. And Sarah Simmons’s rendition of it… Geez her voice is just perfect.

Wow, haha, what a crazy day. Dance concert happened first… And then trip to NYC for the Romeo...

Sun, 16 Jun 2013 03:29:49 -0400

Wow, haha, what a crazy day.

Dance concert happened first… And then trip to NYC for the Romeo and Juliet ballet with friends. Now that group dynamic was definitely a crazy one… XD

So many random things revealed…. o_o

dasvidaniyabitches: The very best of Yahoo Answers.

Sat, 15 Jun 2013 13:02:38 -0400

dasvidaniyabitches:

The very best of Yahoo Answers.

"Airports see more sincere kisses than wedding halls. The walls of hospitals have heard more prayers..."

Sat, 15 Jun 2013 13:00:21 -0400

“Airports see more sincere kisses than wedding halls. The walls of hospitals have heard more prayers than the walls of churches.”

- (via saklas)

"I think your 20s are the hardest part of life. I mean, everyone goes on about how hard it is to be a..."

Sat, 15 Jun 2013 04:00:36 -0400

“I think your 20s are the hardest part of life. I mean, everyone goes on about how hard it is to be a teenager, but actually I think it’s tougher to be in your 20s because you’re expected to be a grownup and expected to earn your own living and be successful and I think you feel like a kid still.”

- Nigel Cole

(via funkienokie)

Of course. Because my school is the way it is… Tomorrow is the last day of school. And...

Fri, 14 Jun 2013 03:11:43 -0400

Of course. Because my school is the way it is… Tomorrow is the last day of school. And I’m sleeping at 3 AM because I’ve been working on a huge project all night (that I actually started very early!) I feel bad for the poor souls that’ll be working through the night.

night. T_T

All is good. Way to wrap up the school year with flourish. XD One more day.

Thu, 13 Jun 2013 16:44:00 -0400

All is good.

Way to wrap up the school year with flourish. XD

One more day.

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Mon, 10 Jun 2013 17:04:56 -0400

I have the most amazing support network of friends and teachers I could ask for. I’m an open...

Mon, 10 Jun 2013 16:21:00 -0400

I have the most amazing support network of friends and teachers I could ask for. I’m an open and expressive person that isn’t afraid to ask for help. But I have realized one important thing: that I don’t need to rely on one person. I shouldn’t, and I have finally learned how not to.

I actually feel on top of the world right now. Because I have learned so much about myself these past few days. And I am more sure of myself than ever before.

I had my few days to process and release my emotions… But tomorrow I will be stronger. I will walk into school with a beautiful outfit, with my head held high and smiling. I don’t want to dwell on these thoughts anymore because I’ve done all the thinking I can. I know how I feel, what I must do, and what I will say. I will keep my positive attitude and believe in my gut that life will work itself out.

It is time I occupied myself with other things.

I am ready. So now I wait.

Too much happened today to talk about. I need to get off Tumblr for a while. These late night...

Fri, 07 Jun 2013 19:58:48 -0400

Too much happened today to talk about.

I need to get off Tumblr for a while. These late night self-rambles are doing me no good. Tumblr is my crutch when human communication isn’t enough. But I am not a perpetually sad person who has no control over her emotions. I am not someone who will let her fears conquer her. And I am not someone who will lose her independence and lose touch with who she knows she is.

If I’m going to do this, I have to do this right. I’m going to be alone for an indefinite amount of time, and that’s okay. I have myself. And if I can’t be happy just by myself, then how can I ever go out and face the world? I’m not a kid anymore and I have to handle my own shit. Wallowing in my fears and miseries on the internet isn’t helping.

I’ll be back when things get better. And I know they will.

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Fri, 07 Jun 2013 04:00:26 -0400

2CELLOS - Clocks ft. Lang Lang (by 2CELLOSlive)

Fri, 07 Jun 2013 01:04:03 -0400

2CELLOS - Clocks ft. Lang Lang (by 2CELLOSlive)