what is this feeling I don’t even know

This is that point during breaks when I don’t know whether I want to just a) sleep forever, b) play all day and do nothing productive, c) just have break in general last forever, or d) go back to school. 

And then there’s a weird little option e called erasing all my memories, but that idea is just foolish down to the bone.

I also get some really wacky ideas that I won’t even write out but they’re so fucking ridiculous… And what’s scary sometimes is that for at least 5 seconds I REALLY want to do them. Then I realize I would either a) screw my life over, b) really hurt someone else, or c) end up really hurting myself in the long run.

Ugh I did way too much walking around alone today. It was a such nice day. Way too much time to just think. That’s why I decided to randomly run when I didn’t need to. ‘Cause I run, things go away.